हमे खो कर

हमे खो कर बहुत पछताओगे ,
जब हम नही होंगे ,
भरी दुनिया को वीरा पाओगे ,
जब हम नही होंगे ,

बहुत आसन सही राहे वफ़ा के, मंजिल लेकिन,
अकेले तुम कहा तक जाओगे ,
जब हम नही होंगे ,

हमे अपना नही , सनम गम तुम्हारा है ,
की तुम किसपर सितम फर्माओगे,
जब हम नही होंगे ।

Vande Mataram

Nothing works well in my country. No system, traffic, population, pollution, politics, basic infrastructure and many more------But nothing compares India
India is Unmatched and Incredible
I am really missing the traffic, the noise , the food, the crowd, the weather, our people and everything around.
I can stay abroad for 15 days max 30 days , but beyond that nothing fascinates . I have started missing gobhi aloo, hajmola , chatt, panipuri , auto , haircut.
May be I am happy with the so called middle class resources, and truly speaking I am not enjoying the most advanced resources I am using here in Denmark . Just imagin a mall where you have a “May I help you “ desk to guide you . You approach there and she will tell you to go straight , take a left and then again right and you will find the Levis showroom. Can that replace the market of Chandni Chowk or Rajouri Garden , where each turn is a surprise and full of excitement .
And all these are possible only in India . You don’t need to go out of India to experience the world. We have all in one country – INDIA .
We don’t need to go to France for skiing or Hawaii to enjoy blue beaches.
And that’s make India – A nation to be envy about.

Happiness

Being happy doesn’t mean that every thing in my life is going well and as desired, but yes definitely its that the thing I love the most in my live is perfect .
Same applies with sadness as well.
I am also going through the same time now. Its not that all has finished in my life , but the think I loved the most , my mother , is no more , and that’s make all the difference. Even other things which are smooth and going as desired , are as well important , but that definitely doesn’t carry the weight age which she carried in my life.
On this 2nd Feb. , it will be a year that she left me alone , but each day has passed with her more than when she was in body.
I really don’t understand what we need from life . Imagine a life where you have everything which you desired for, but no loved one around. Isn’t this a empty happiness.
May be as the time passes by , I would be able to find happiness in other things and may be the thing which gives me most happiness changes, but for now all seems to be blank.

माँ तुम्हारा साथ

कुछ तो बात है , कुछ है तो,
आँखे बंद करो और फिर देखो ,
माँ के साथ ये दुनिया सारी सारी,

वो आँखों में चमक , वो मीठी सी मुस्कान ,
वो हर वक्त रहना बेचैन और परेशान ,
सोचो और फिर देखो दुनिया कैसी है ,
उसके बिना सब अधुरा , सब बेजान ,


अब तो बस ये चाह है ,कब उससे मिलेंगे ,
कब सुन सकेंगे उसकी बातें ,
और पूछेंगे कियु किया तुमसे ऐसा ,
क्या मेरी गलती इतनी बड़ी थी ,
छोड़ दिया अकेला मुझे ,बातें सब अधूरी ,
कहना था अभी सारी बातें जो थी जरुरी ।

हर वक्त तुम्हारा साथ ,
ये मत समझना , तुम ऐसे ही चली जाओगी ,मेरि ज़िन्दगी से,
आऊंगा हर जनम में तुम्हारे ही पास ,

समझ नही आता कैसे तुम्हे वापस बुला लू,
सावित्री की तरह यमराज को मना लू,
बस एक बार वापस कर दो मरी माँ ,
और ले लो हमसे ये सारा जहाँ ,

इससे अच्छा तो कुछ याद ही न रहता ,
कौन आपना और कौन पराया ,
कम से कम ये तो तसल्ली होता,
की तुम हो अच्छे से कही पे,
और माँ , मै यही सोच कर सोता

Written By Me

Priceless Moments

I was listening to ghazals from movie Bazaar, and every thing came as a flashback.
My days at Bokaro, school, my sisters, my parents . The whole thing was beautiful. Although we had limited resources , but that too was fun. Spending time in one room, I still remember the day papa bought a new carromboard , and we were so excided that we played the whole night. We at home were great music lovers, ghazals, classical and vocal We used to spend a lot of time listening to music. Since we didn’t got much pocket money , I used to eagerly wait for one of my cousin who used to buy me cassettes when ever he came to our place.
And my elder sister used to be my savior at all times. Even during exam , after repeated warning from papa , I used to go for play. Coming back home used to be a pain. And then my sister used to save me from papa’s stick.
The worst effected was my younger sister. She was a guinea pig for my research. I used to make useless tunes from my lyrics diary which I got from my school, and she used to memories and sing that for me. This happened for a long time , till she realized that my tunes are useless.
And then sitting at the terrace, we used to have chapatti byte from maa on a turn. She used to feed us one by one and after every bite , I used to wait for my turn to come.
I miss that all , those days were priceless. Now we are all at different places sharing our feeling through mobile, phone or emails .
Truly speaking , I live in the past and every event triggers a flashback for me.

Satyam Saga – Heartbreaking

I was surprised by the news of Raju accepting deep fraud in Satyam accounts. It was not only shocking but at the same time painful. I was associated with Satyam for 3 years and am proud to be associated with it. I left it in June 2008 , and with the recent development , it seems to be a good decision now. It not only disturbes us but all those who are associated with us . But these recent developments have make me feel down.
You have a baby whom you love more than anybody . You care for him, you feed him and to see him on the top of the sky , you even do things which you are not supposed to. As time passes by , the baby turns into a adult and then you come to know you have spoiled the child with your unwanted love and affection .
The same happened with Satyam. It was a brainchild of Raju. He nurtured and took the company to where it is in 21 years. And suddenly, the means he took to reach there, made all the difference.
Its very painful to read and hear news about Satyam. Analysts are talking about sellout, breaking up into verticals and sectors , closing down etc , and its hurting me a lot.
Throughout my association with Satyam, I had the best time of my carrier. Great environment, great team and charged work place.
Its very difficult to understand , in 2 week time, all has comedown and that because of a single man who should have protected the interests of the employees and shareholders.
In a span of overnight , this company has become untouchable .
I just pray that it comes out safe and sound and with stronger top management team with ethics and take the brand Sataym forward.
It would be painful for me to see the company broken and divided.

Love & Detachment

Being in Denmark for some time now makes me understand why its good to love someone intensely but at the same time be detached. Its difficult for people like us to understand , but this is the only way to reduce pain.
Its universally true that one has to leave this body some day or other, this results in utmost pain if its of some one who means a lot to you.
But if love is accompanied by detachment , its easy to understand the truth .
I have been struggling to be normal after my mother left us . May be if I would have followed what people in west follow , I would have been able to perform activates much better . Its not that people in west don’t love there near and dear ones, but may be it’s a detached love. What I am talking about is nothing new, I have hearing and reading this as well and the idea is very much in India as well, but its difficult to follow which is also because of the way our society is setup. We have so close bond with each other and sometimes even at a very old age, the dependency is too much. This results in attachment. Where as here in west, at a very early age its made clear that one is sole responsible for one’s life in every matter. This results in freedom and also makes one detached to some extend. This never means that they don’t love , much since love is accompanied by detachment, there pain is less and is feasible too.
When it comes to leaving body, there is no way we can stop and we are helpless. Then why not to accept this truth that its unavoidable and there is no house which is untouched in the world.
But then why such a painful creation by god???

माँ

माँ..... काया शब्द खुदा ने बनाई ,

मनो सारीखुशी इसमे समायी ,

माँ मतलब प्यार , माँ मतलब दुलार,

माँ से सारा जहा ,

मिल जाए खुदा भी माँ हो वहा,

माँ तुम्हारी एक झलक पाने को ,

सारी खुशी कुर्बान।

तुम्हारे बिना ये जीवन किस काम,

अब समझ आता है क्या थे तुम मेरे,

हर दिन और हर शाम ,

बस तेरी ही यादें और तेरा नाम,

किस्से कहे हर बात अपनी ,

जब तुम बन गए भगवन,

हर बात तुम्हारी याद आती है ,

शायद तब तक , जब तक न हो जाए मेरे जीवन की शाम ,

बॉस यही अंतिम बात अच्छी न लगी ,

कैसे निर्णय ले लिया अकेले ,

की तुम्हारे बच्चे बस यादो में संजोये ,

बिताये सारी उमर अकेले अकेले ।

Writen by Me

2009 – Resolution

No more resolutions for 2009 , as I don’t stick to that . I have decided to listen to my heart and move ahead. Even decided not to put too much of brain in anything and leave things simple and as they come .
I have felt that there are times when that external force want us to take things as simple as they come , but its we who start reading between the lines and then life becomes complicated.
I want to give myself a try…….. totally to thy will and I know it will be much better then what I decide and do.
The problem is I don’t even know what is good for me . All actions are decided on the situation and need at that very moment . May be what I need is not good for me in the long run,…… who cares…..and then I get that …..as time passes I start regretting why I asked for this. But till then…its too late.
But not this time….
Lets see what is planned for me……when I have let myself open …….

Joy of true Work

Our selfish work, prompted by ego and ego centric desires in which millions are sweating and toiling from morning till evening, that karma is like labor job. These are prompted purely by our ego and we ruin our life our self. Running from day till evening like animals. By far it’s the sweating and harassing in the world outside , its pure labor job without any purpose. Complaining of the tension , stress and strain of life , that is not real work.
“WORK IS INSPIRED WORK”
Where the worker never understand tiredness. The joy of the true work replenishes the true worker. The joy if true work is nobler than all the amount of sweat , and bucket of tension brings out of you, extortion you bring about physical – that is only labor and “ that is not true work”
Maintain your ideal and then work on it . But keep one thing in mind that the ideal is not a small ideal. Like I want Rs 100 million and the moment I get that , I would retire. But there are chances that WE may get it, but there after one has nothing to do, one is dead in action. So
“ALWAYS KEEP THE GOAL HIGHEST---- SO HIGHT THAT YOU NEVER REACH”
But then what is the purpose of keeping the goal so high when you cant even reach. Reaching the goal is not the goal, striving to reach it----that’s the moment when one grows .And so when you are inspired by working , there is no extortion or tiredness.

Inspired by Swami Chinmayananda

New Year 2009

Today on the eve when the world is celebrating the passing of 2008 and arrival of new year , I just have one thing in mind, this year has taken the most precious thing of my life- my mother. I really don’t know when to say goodbye to this year or not, as I feel long with my mother this year too is passing . Time has passed by and it has been 10 months since my mother left the body.
She has taken all my enthusiasm and energy with her, and has left a living body of mine which is nothing better then a moving skeleton.
I wonder how I will spend whole life with each moment having her at the back of the mind.
No words to write further