Tere Mere Sapne

I was driving for my office today morning . Fantastic song on FM . This song from movie "Guide" sums up a marriage ...may not be perfect marriage , but it should be like this .

Papa always says that marriage is all about adjustments . But for me its about meeting your everyday dreams with your partner ...someone with whom you have planned your rest of the life .

Then there is nothing called "mera ya tera" ...its for both and mutual

May be I am talking of super humans, but its my way of looking . The song is as below and this is also one of the favorite song of my mother . She used to sing beautifully with papa.

तेरे मेरे सपने, अब एक रंग हैं
जहा भी ले जाए राहे, हम संग हैं

मेरे तेरे दिल का, तय था एक दिन मिलना
जैसे बहार आने पर, तय हैं फूल का खिलना
ओ मेरे जीवन साथी.. ..

तेरे दुःख अब मेरे, मेरे सुख अब तेरे
तेरे ये दो नैना, चाँद और सूरज मेरे
ओ मेरे जीवन साथी.. ..

लाख मना ले दुनियाँ, साथ ना ये छूटेगा
आ के मेरे हाथों में, हाथ ना ये छूटेगा
ओ मेरे जीवन साथी.. ..

Maa Papa ...Wonderful Couple

Maa was so found of pictures . I have many pictures of her .

And we have her pictures from very early ages . There are few , the memory of which I don't recollect , but few pictures of her early life is still fresh in my heart .

Today morning I took the old albums out and things were nostalgic .

I also wanted to put some pictures of Maa and Me , but then these were the once which are  more close to my heart .

Maa looks so innocent , sweet and beautiful . And never to say ...papa in his all time favorite dashing style . 
The color and shine of the pictures have faded , but the memories are fresh .

They made a wonderful couple . 

She left me too early  , but then ....this is  life .                          

Dil Hi Dil Me

Today has been the day of ghazal singer "Chandan Das "
Papa has couple of cassettes and I am listening after long long time . Poetry and lyrics is simple with few urdu words , so its easy to understand and connect .

One such ghazal is : Dil Hi Dil Mein Khatm Hokar

    Dil hi dil mein khatm hokar
    Dhadkane reh jaayengi
    Woh na aayenge to mittakar
    Chahate reh jaayengi
   
    Sab juda ho jaayenge
    Ik mod aa jaane ke baad
    Khaafb aankhon se chhilenge
    Surat reh jaayengi
   
    Woh chale jaayenge
    Meri manzilo se bhi pare
    Mere sannate mein unki
    Aahate reh jaayere
     
    Kuch udaasi ya
    Le jaayegi milkar aapse
    Saamna ho jaayenga par
    Hasrate reh jaayengi
   
    Hum charage anjuman
    Bankar sulagate jaayenge
    Yaad kuch beete dino ki
    Mehfile reh jaayengi
    
Link : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUnRLMV_viA
    

आशियाना

2010 , papa decided to move with me ( Delhi )  .

Painful , blank , moved ...I was also ...as we were vacating our house in Bokaro .

There was no way we could have brought  everything to Delhi , so we offered them to our close friends .

It was difficult to see papa's pain of letting things go ...but it was . All items ....30 ...40 years old ...part of our daily life  , attached .

and finally ...it was all over .

आशियाना

चमन की बहारों में था आशियाना,
न जाने कहाँ खो गया वो ज़माना.

ये किस ख़लिश ने फिर इस दिल में आशियाना किया,
फिर आज किस ने सुख़न हम से ग़ायेबाना किया.

इसी चमन में ही हमारा भी इक ज़माना था,
यहीं कहीं कोई सादा सा आशियाना था.

नसीब अब तो नहीं शाख़ भी नशेमन की,
लदा हुआ कभी फूलों से आशियाना था.

ख़ुश्क टहनी पर परिंदा है कि पत्ता है 'अदीम',
आशियाना भी नहीं जिस का कोई पर भी नहीं.

कभी दर्द की तमन्ना कभी कोशिश-ए-मदावा,
कभी बिजलियों की ख़्वाहिश कभी फिक्र-ए-आशियाना.

ख़ुद अपने हाथ से "शहजाद"उस को काट दिया,
के जिस दरख़्त के टहनी पे आशियाना था.

Kaifi Azmi : Rebel with a Cause

Kaifi Azmi : Rebel with a Cause
We know him better as the father of Shabana Azmi .
I have not listened or read much , but papa just loves his poetry . I do love the poetry as below .

दायरा

रोज़ बढ़ता हूँ जहाँ से आगे
फिर वहीं लौट के आ जाता हूँ
बारहा तोड़ चुका हूँ जिन को
इन्हीं दीवारों से टकराता हूँ
रोज़ बसते हैं कई शहर नये
रोज़ धरती में समा जाते हैं
ज़लज़लों में थी ज़रा सी गिरह
वो भी अब रोज़ ही आ जाते हैं,

जिस्म से रूह तलक रेत ही रेत
न कहीं धूप न साया न सराब
कितने अरमाँ है किस सहरा में
कौन रखता है मज़ारों का हिसाब
नफ़्ज़ बुझती भी भड़कती भी है
दिल का मामूल है घबराना भी
रात अँधेरे ने अँधेरे से कहा
इक आदत है जिये जाना भी,

क़ौस एक रंग की होती है तुलू’अ
एक ही चाल भी पैमाना भी
गोशे गोशे में खड़ी है मस्जिद
मुश्किल क्या हो गई मयख़ाने की
कोई कहता था समंदर हूँ मैं
और मेरी जेब में क़तरा भी नहीं
ख़ैरियत अपनी लिखा करता हूँ
अब तो तक़दीर में ख़तरा भी नहीं,

अपने हाथों को पढ़ा करता हूँ
कभी क़ुरान कभी गीता की तरह
चंद रेखाओं में समाऊँ मैं
ज़िन्दगी क़ैद है सीता की तरह
राम कब लौटेंगे मालूम नहीं
काश रावन ही कोई आ जाता

नैना नीर भरे

Today morning , I got up with a strong feel that Maa is with me .

During my walk also , she was prominent in my mind . Now when I am writing this , she is still with me .

May be since I am spending so much time in papa's room .

The most uninterrupted and 100% owned thing with a human being is "memories"

" बाके बिहारी घनशयाम , नैना नीर भरे  "

Maa was so found of music ...good music ...all credit to Papa .

This bhajan too was her favorite

I know why she is so prominent in me now ....i will again lose her on 2nd Feb ...and its so close .

Sitaro Tum To So Jao

 Pareshan raat saree hai sitaro tum toh soo jao
 Sukute marg taree hai, sitaro tum toh so jao
 
 Hamen bhee nind aa jayegee hum bhi so hee jayenge
 Abhee kuchh bekararee hai, sitaro tum toh soo jao
 
 Hamen toh aaj kee shab pau phate tak jagana hoga
 Yahee kismat hamari hai, sitaro tum toh so jao
 
 Tumhe kya aaj bhi agar koi milne nahi aaya 
 Yeh bazi hamne hari hai, sitaro tum toh so jao
 
 Kahe jate ho ro ro kar hamara haal duniya se
 Yeh kaisi rajdari hai, sitaro tum toh so jao

Rest Room

I was there in hospital few days back . It was a small hospital and I was sitting in the lobby . From where I was , ladies rest room was clearly visible .

Next to me were a couple , in there 70's . The lady was having some trouble and may be that's the reason they were in the hospital . After a while , the elderly lady wanted to use the rest room  , the elderly man took her to the rest room  and then he also wanted to go inside . The staff present there said that since its a ladies toilet , you can't enter . He was so adamant that she needed him and so he can't leave her go alone . After much assurance from the staff , he let them do that . It touched me  . As the time passes , you need someone to fall back on . This was love or habit or fear of losing someone special  , I don't know , but even knowing all the rules of a ladies toilet , this elderly  man didn't wanted to let her go in alone . He was also least bothered about what the society will think ..... life should be like this .