Advice

People who are part of our daily life can give us important hints on decisions we need to take.
But for this purpose all that is needed is a sharp eye and an attentive ear, because those who have ready solutions are usually suspect.
It’s very dangerous to ask for advice. It’s very easy, but also very risky to lend advice, if we have a minimum sense of responsibility towards the other person.
If they need help, it’s best to show them some examples, seeing how others resolve – or don’t resolve – their problems.
Our angel often uses someone’s lips to tell us something, but this answer comes casually, usually at a moment when we do not let our worries overshadow the miracle of life.
Advice is just theory; living is always very different.

I am Happy ...Papa is Back

I am Happy . Papa is back from his 3 month world tour . I am not sure these recurring tours every year is what keeps him motivated or I am the reason for him to be motivated to be on these tours ...in any case ...I am happy that he is back home .

He always carries so much energy and enthusiasm which actually gives life support to all of us . I got calls from all the family and friends where he stayed , and every one is missing him now .

To choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way is what makes a man give meaning to life and that’s what papa does .

His music , reading , writing does gives all support in his present day attitude and he has been fabulous in that .

One great change in him this time , he seems more close to me than ever before . It may also be since he is one of those person who knows what I need " the most"

Creation of Universe

There was neither non-existence nor existence then.
There was neither the realm of space nor the sky which is beyond.
What stirred?
Where?
In whose protection?
Was there water, bottlemlessly deep?

There was neither death nor immortality then.
There was no distinguishing sign of night nor of day.
That One breathed, windless, by its own impulse.
Other than that there was nothing beyond.

Darkness was hidden by darkness in the beginning,
with no distinguishing sign, all this was water.
The life force that was covered with emptiness,
that One arose through the power of heat.

Desire came upon that One in the beginning,
that was the first seed of mind.
Poets seeking in their heart with wisdom
found the bond of existence and non-existence.

Their cord was extended across.
Was there below?
Was there above?
There were seed-placers, there were powers.
There was impulse beneath, there was giving forth above.

Who really knows?
Who will here proclaim it?
Whence was it produced?
Whence is this creation?
The gods came afterwards, with the creation of this universe.
Who then knows whence it has arisen?

Whence this creation has arisen
- perhaps it formed itself, or perhaps it did not -
the One who looks down on it,
in the highest heaven, only He knows
or perhaps He does not know.

Don't question , just believe ....Rigveda

Freedom of Expression

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The debate on freedom of speech in the past 2 weeks have been totally irritating and frustrating . Ramjas and JNU has been the epicentre of this movement .

There is no substance to it and to some extend social media is responsible for it . Freedom of expression , freedom of speech ...but to what extend

How valid it is to practice your right and enter the right of others .

Its critical for everyone to be ........IN THEIR LIMITS

Freedom doesn’t mean speaking out and expressing each and everything what comes in mind ,  although its violation or breach of others freedom .

No one need to justify ones patriotism for India . Facebook and tweeter definitely cant help in that .

Also there are more serious topics which need discussion rather than freedom for Kashmir , Punjab and Telangana .

These are not even debatable topics ...completely rejected  .

I don’t feel people who are involved in such debate love our mother land and are anyway interested in the vested interest of wider audience , its more of self fulfilment .

Every inch of our mother land is ours and united and any debate or though to make it a better place should be welcomed , but please stop dragging and expressing ideas which is mere waste of intelligence on the name of FREEDOM  

कब आते हो ..कब जाते हो

This is the only plant left with me now which was planted by Maa . Its a banyan tree and Maa used to perform puja around it .

ना आमद की आहट .. ना जाने की टोह मिलती है !
कब आते हो ..कब जाते हो !

ईमली का ये पेड़ हवा में जब हिलता है तो,
ईटों की दीवारों पर परछाई का छीटा परता है,
और जज्ब हो जातें जैसे !

सूखी मट्टी पर कोई पानी के कतरे फ़ेंक गया हो ..
धीरे धीरे आँगन में फिर धुप सिसकती रहती है ..
बंद कमरे में कभी कभी ,
जब दिये की लौ हिल जाती है तो,
एक बड़ा सा साया मुझे घूँट घूँट पीने लगता है !

कब आते हो कब जाते हो दिन में कितनी बार तुम याद आते हो !!

Life is too short to Plan

Its almost 10 years since Maa left . Its almost 5 years since we left our home town completely and shifted to Delhi .
I still have my home landline phone number saved under the name "Maa Phone "
From past few weeks , everyday I wake up with a natural feel what was there 10 years back . I have to wake up , make a call to Maa and let her know about everyday happening , small and big .

Something inside me , telling me everyday that she is in Bokaro waiting for my call .
I have even tried calling the number , but no response since its dead from past 5 years .
Her voice over phone still echoes in my ears . And her dying love for me , after all I came after so much of prayers which she did .

My heart wasn’t satisfied yet and she left

Watching Someone You Love Die

I found this cute picture of Maa in the album today .

My father was talking about Maa today and he because emotional . On the night of 2nd Feb , 2008 , when my mother suffered from heart stroke, she asked him to take her to hospital and also cried to make it fast . It was one of those few moments when papa would have drove the car at such a high speed . He rushed Maa to the critical unit . He was holding her hand and Maa was looking at him . Slowly and slowly she closed her eyes and papa could feel that she is leaving him for ever .
It just took 15 minutes and everything was over .
I was not there when papa was narrating this and he became emotional . This happened today at my sisters place in Kolkata  .
You don’t open up in front of all . You may be out spoken , extrovert or a crowd loving person , but when it comes to sharing something emotional, something from depth of your heart and something priceless , there are every few people in the list .
Didi is one such person with whom papa just opens up . May be he knows that she is one who is purely connected and can actually understand the pain and emotion which papa is going through .