Saturday 10 December 2016

Tumhari Amrita

"Don't you dare touch it,” Ludhianvi said to Jaidev. “Amrita drank tea out of it the last time she was here."
This story is of famous poet Amrita Pritam and writer Sahir Ludhianvi .
Sahir never committed for the relationship, but there love for each other was immortal.
They’d sit in silence and gaze into each other’s eyes while Ludhianvi chain-smoked his cigarettes. After he left, Amrita picked up the stubs left by him and smoked them, pressing her lips upon the invisible imprint of his.
Sometime in the 1950s, Amrita’s hopes came crashing. Sahir, the famous poet, reigning over Bollywood as its highest-paid lyricist then, had found another love. “I was about to pick up the phone and call Sahir, when I saw the latest issue of Blitz. It had Sahir’s picture and a story that said he was with another woman. My hands froze…,” wrote Amrita.
In 1957 , Amrita met Imroz .
Amrita admits that “Imroz’s love was a gift” to her. “The helpless habit of years of writing only one name on papers, walls, hands made me trace Sahir’s name with my fingers on Imroz’s back when I would be sitting behind him on the scooter. Imroz would know the words and keep quiet about it. How he bore the weight of these words on his back I do not know.
I only knew he accepted me, my madness.”
Imroz wrote to her regularly, trying to win her love during their years of separation in the early 1960s, before they finally started living together, without marrying .
They never got married , but lived together till Amrita's death parted them in 2005.

One of the last poem which Amrita Pritam penned :
 मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं
शायद तेरे कल्पनाओं
की प्रेरणा बन
तेरे केनवास पर उतरुँगी
या तेरे केनवास पर
एक रहस्यमयी लकीर बन
ख़ामोश तुझे देखती रहूँगी
मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं

या सूरज की लौ बन कर
तेरे रंगो में घुलती रहूँगी
या रंगो की बाँहों में बैठ कर
तेरे केनवास पर बिछ जाऊँगी
पता नहीं कहाँ किस तरह
पर तुझे ज़रुर मिलूँगी

या फिर एक चश्मा बनी
जैसे झरने से पानी उड़ता है
मैं पानी की बूंदें
तेरे बदन पर मलूँगी
और एक शीतल अहसास बन कर
तेरे सीने से लगूँगी

मैं और तो कुछ नहीं जानती
पर इतना जानती हूँ
कि वक्त जो भी करेगा
यह जनम मेरे साथ चलेगा
यह जिस्म ख़त्म होता है
तो सब कुछ ख़त्म हो जाता है

पर यादों के धागे
कायनात के लम्हें की तरह होते हैं
मैं उन लम्हों को चुनूँगी
उन धागों को समेट लूंगी
मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं

मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी!!

Friday 2 December 2016

रिश्ते


After a long time , I took break .

Its true that material things can contribute a lot to making one's life pleasant, but, basically, if you do not have very good friends and relatives who matter to you, life will be empty and sad and material things cease to be important.
I was in Kolkata with my sister and life just went back by 20 years . I grew up in a family with two very strong impact persons , maa  and my elder sister, and they were big influences on my life.
In the past 4 days , had my favourite food , listened to my favourite ghazals and spend  all my time sitting with my sister and reliving memories . Ultimately Things don't really impress much , but memories do . It's not the toys, it's the people who matter .

Saturday 26 November 2016

Why to Wait

Why to wait for the day when life finally makes sense, when we find the silver lining in every tragedy, when we learn the lesson from each mistake .
Why to wait for the day that we understand why we met the right people at the wrong time or the wrong people at the right time and why our lives didn’t align to bring us together.

Why to wait for the day that we understand the lesson behind every struggle. Why we struggled to be successful, why we struggled to find love, why we struggled to reach our dreams and why we lost people who meant the world to us. I wonder if we needed these lessons to learn how to appreciate life and feel the pain of others or we just needed to learn that there is no living without suffering.

Thursday 24 November 2016

Life Without Mobile

Is life so tough and un-imaginary without mobile phone :)
I keep doing that and have found that life was much simpler with limited exposure and information.
As time has passed, we have been into a world of information age with huge exposure to almost everything . But was this needed.
I feel it has made us more confused and indecisive. We are bombarded with information and are almost clueless, with what to do with the bundle of information.
I still feel , mobile was never my best friend .I am not ruling out the great power it carries and I do use it  , but still it has taken a lot of serenity than what we have got in return .
Its rightly said " The more time we spend interconnected via a myriad of devices, the less time we have left to develop true friendships in the real world"

Wednesday 26 October 2016

Helplessness


Life has always been so uncertain and its been a chakraview , finding the reason for my existence and what next . Even a slightest of thing doesn’t work as per my will . So why all this .
Its again a very dead moment for me . I lost my cousin , and its so painful thinking that at what stage of life I am t, my cousins have started leaving me .
Its a state of complete helplessness .All my request , pray and begging has been unaccepted .
He was my sole reason to visit Ranchi , very grounded and always with a smiling face. He was also my mother's special    .
Within I am broken and even though I have planned to visit Ranchi tomorrow , I have no strength left to see him lying lifeless .
Tomorrow , all things beautiful and bright would be buried with him forever .

Monday 10 October 2016

Walking Along The Memory Lane


Naumi , the ninth day of Durga puja . I love this festival because this takes me back to my golden days with Maa .
Out of the whole year , there were just 2 occasions when we got new dresses , durga puja was one of them . Naumi used to be the day when we all went to the puja pandal and offer flowers to Maa Durga in new dress .
Maa used to look so pretty in red sari and lot of red glass bangles. Time has changed. We all left Boakro 10 years back . Every thing of that era stayed back in Bokaro , except my golden memories of time spend with Maa . These were the most special time for all of us . And its true , When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.

Thursday 29 September 2016

Happy Birthday Omi


28th Sept was Omi's birthday , my nephew.
He completed 5 years .I have seen him growing and his love for me is something I enjoy the most .
today as well I was there at 2 PM IST , although I was late , he was impatiently waiting for me . Also recently he has started giving respect to me :) , so now I am termed aap and also mamajee .
I feel so happy for my sister as the most precious thing for her is her Omi now . Her excitement , her happiness and her love for him is very much visible .
No wonder she hate me, after all I do everything to spoil Omi fully. 

"As you grow older, you’ll let go of your mischievous days and innocent ways. But please don’t let go of your cuteness, which gives me nothing but happiness. Happy birthday Omi."

Sunday 11 September 2016

When they don't care about Your feelings



Its really a pure emotional drain out when you know the person in front of you doesn’t care for your feelings. But it happens in life and some point in time, you have to take a final call. It’s difficult, but not impossible. One of the approach can be forgiveness. Other is detachment. If they have hurt you in the past and continue to hurt you, chances are you'll react only because you have not forgiven them. Maybe they have done something quite severe; maybe they hurt you really immoral. You ought to forgive them for your own good, not theirs. By forgiving them, you'll feel a lot lighter.
If the above doesn’t work , detachment is the last resort . Chances are you have enough on your plate without having to deal with the pain. If a person clearly does not care about you, it will help you a lot if you let them go, detach yourself. There are a lot of other people who will accept you, respect you, care about you for who you are. If you're the one getting hurt, its time for you to come out now . Forgive, and let go.

Wednesday 31 August 2016

कारवां गुज़र गया

स्वप्न झरे फूल से,
मीत चुभे शूल से,
लुट गये सिंगार सभी बाग़ के बबूल से,
और हम खड़े-खड़े बहार देखते रहे
कारवां गुज़र गया, गुबार देखते रहे!

नींद भी खुली न थी कि हाय धूप ढल गई,
पाँव जब तलक उठे कि ज़िन्दगी फिसल गई,
पात-पात झर गये कि शाख़-शाख़ जल गई,
चाह तो निकल सकी न, पर उमर निकल गई,
गीत अश्क़ बन गए,
छंद हो दफ़न गए,
साथ के सभी दिऐ धुआँ-धुआँ पहन गये,
और हम झुके-झुके,
मोड़ पर रुके-रुके
उम्र के चढ़ाव का उतार देखते रहे
कारवां गुज़र गया, गुबार देखते रहे।

क्या शबाब था कि फूल-फूल प्यार कर उठा,
क्या सुरूप था कि देख आइना मचल उठा
इस तरफ जमीन और आसमां उधर उठा,
थाम कर जिगर उठा कि जो मिला नज़र उठा,
एक दिन मगर यहाँ,
ऐसी कुछ हवा चली,
लुट गयी कली-कली कि घुट गयी गली-गली,
और हम लुटे-लुटे,
वक्त से पिटे-पिटे,
साँस की शराब का खुमार देखते रहे
कारवां गुज़र गया, गुबार देखते रहे।

हाथ थे मिले कि जुल्फ चाँद की सँवार दूँ,
होंठ थे खुले कि हर बहार को पुकार दूँ,
दर्द था दिया गया कि हर दुखी को प्यार दूँ,
और साँस यूँ कि स्वर्ग भूमी पर उतार दूँ,
हो सका न कुछ मगर,
शाम बन गई सहर,
वह उठी लहर कि दह गये किले बिखर-बिखर,
और हम डरे-डरे,
नीर नयन में भरे,
ओढ़कर कफ़न, पड़े मज़ार देखते रहे
कारवां गुज़र गया, गुबार देखते रहे!

माँग भर चली कि एक, जब नई-नई किरन,
ढोलकें धुमुक उठीं, ठुमक उठे चरण-चरण,
शोर मच गया कि लो चली दुल्हन, चली दुल्हन,
गाँव सब उमड़ पड़ा, बहक उठे नयन-नयन,
पर तभी ज़हर भरी,
ग़ाज एक वह गिरी,
पुंछ गया सिंदूर तार-तार हुई चूनरी,
और हम अजान से,
दूर के मकान से,
पालकी लिये हुए कहार देखते रहे।
कारवां गुज़र गया, गुबार देखते रहे।
:- Gopaldas Neeraj

Friday 19 August 2016

Raksha Bandhan



Raksha Bandhan is a festival which celebrates the bond of affection between brothers and sisters. Its also a day for each others' well being and wish for each others' happiness and goodwill.
During the days of Emperor Humayun, it is believed that Rani Karnavati had sent a Rakhi to emperor Humayun in order to get protection from Bahadur Shah who was invading her kingdom. In spite of being of a different religion, he rushed to her help.

I too celebrated and thanked GOD for blessing me with such wonderful sisters .