There Is No Semi Final

We always get trained on something new . Every final has a semi final . 

Except : someone's last journey ...i hate to say ..but its Death 

When maa left me alone and went , i was never planned nor  ready to live life without her  .

And when you are not told or guided ...its as if looking out for a way out in a dark room

I hate why I was not teached  how to live life without  maa

I know there was nothing which has happened to me alone . But may be I was never prepared  .

On the day when she left ...papa called me and said .." maa is no more " ....and my response was... whose mother ?

As if this would have never happened to me ..............

But time has all the capability to melt everything

I still miss her every moment ...but some memories have faded and I am myself surprised .

May be ....this is life

दिल ढूँढता है

Take care of all your memories. For you cannot relive them. I was born in Bokaro , a small industrial town and major part of my life was spend in official quarters allotted to papa . It also had lawn and till 10th standard, apart from school and play, lawn was my favorite place . 

Music, at its essence, is what gives us memories. And the longer a song has existed in our lives, the more memories we have of it. This song is one of them : 

दिल ढूँढता है, फिर वही फुरसत के रात दिन
बैठे रहे तसव्वुर-ए-जाना किये हुए

जाड़ों की नर्म धुप और आँगन में लेट कर
आँखों पे खिंच कर तेरे दामन के साए को
औंधे पड़े रहे कभी करवट लिए हुए

या गर्मियों की रात जो पूरवाईयाँ चले
ठंडी सफ़ेद चादरों पे जागे देर तक
तारों को देखते रहे छत पर पड़े हुए

बर्फीली सर्दियों में किसी भी पहाड़ पर
वादी में गूंजती हुयी, खामोशियाँ सूने
आँखों में भीगे भीगे से लम्हे लिए हुए

Innocence

Both my sisters , this picture was clicked almost 30 years back . Its actually a cute snap taken by papa . Both of them in sari which maa put on . I was asking didi why one of them is not in good mood . The reason was also innocent . One of them had jewellery on and the other didn’t got , so her mood was off . Wonderful 

My sister is still the same , I don’t feel her reaction would change even now .

Its difficult to write everything going on inside , but life would have been dull without them .