Year 2014

Thank you Matajee , for being with me and accepting me as I am . Every event of 2014 has been a blessing from you and I thank you from the bottom of my heart .

This year has been a moment of some of my post important inner findings . But the worst has been one of my action which i will repent me for my life .

I am also thankful god for giving me such a wonderful family and friend , who stand by me in all the situations .

To sum up , I am so grateful to you for keeping all my loved ones with me , all with good though and good health .

Love & Acceptance

Papa's love for me is unconditional and pure . I too know that .

But at times my reactions are so weird .

Few days back , he called me from Kolkata and due to bad voice quality his voice was too loud.

Even after my repeated request , his pitch was too high . In my bad mood I replied arrogantly that papa your voice is not clear and even if you shout , how will I hear .

He was disappointed . I came out of the meeting , called him 5 times , but he didn't picked .

I called my sister and asked him to help mediate . I knew I was wrong .

My sister then gave him the phone forcefully , I asked for pardon .

I knew he will forgive me ...and he said ... "your answer was rude ...showed you don't want to talk ...if someone doesn't want to talk ...what can I do ...but if I know you want to talk , I will do every bit to talk till he says he doesn't want to  "

I am happy he accepted me back ...even with all my mistakes ...he loves me .

Can't Help Falling In Love

Wonderful song by Elvis Presley ....and the magical voice .
I love ghazals , Indian classical , both insturmental and vocal . But this song is classic

Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you
for I can't help falling in love with you 

Link : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5V430M59Yn8

Destiny & Choice

I don't believe in destiny . 

Destiny = The inevitable or necessary fate to which a particular person or thing is destined; one's lot.

Are my actions approved by divine ...dont know :(
So why so much confusion on what where why who when etc
There is lot of confusion about destiny and choice .
There is no end to this controversy , but can be understood with what Swami Chinmayananda said :
"What we meet in our life is destiny ; how we meet what we meet is our choice "

ॐ जय जगदीश हरे

Went to Lakshi Narayan Mandir . Fortunately it was time for Arti ( prayer ) . It was so vibrant and I really enjoyed the Arti . ॐ  जय जगदीश हरे was my favorite Arti ...although I was too small to understand during my Bokaro days when I first heard and sang this prayer , but I always enjoyed .

Then comes a line which says " तेरा तुझको अर्पण , क्या लागे मेरा " .Wired and strange  ..so all belongs to the supreme  ...and we all know that ..but how to arpan ...give back . This is not easy ...its possible only when the surrender is pure and driven and centered around the supreme .  

 I just loved the moment I spend in the temple ...and the vibration and feel inside is so powerful .

Maa & Me

Divine roles ...Maa , friend , teacher , sister , wife , daughter .
The comfort and feel I shared with Maa was unmatched .
MY FIRST LOVE .
Even now in my toughest times , hope she was with me  . 

रंजिश ही सही

Was listening to Papon on Mtv unplugged . Great singer and with lot of music sense .

He also sang one of my favorite numbers ...a ghazal by Mehandi Hasan saab .

The lyrics is so touching and I have been hearing this from past 20 years or so.

रंजिश ही सही दिल ही दुखाने के लिए आ
आ फिर से मुझे छोड़ के जाने के लिये आ

अब तक दिल-ए-खुशफ़हम को हैं तुझ से उम्मीदें
ये आखिरी शम्में भी बुझाने के लिये आ

इक उम्र से हूँ लज्ज़त-ए-गिरया से भी महरूम
ऐ राहत-ए-जां मुझको रुलाने के लिये आ

कुछ तो मेरे पिन्दार-ए-मोहब्बत का भरम रख
तू भी तो कभी मुझ को मनाने के लिये आ

माना के मोहब्बत का छुपाना है मोहब्बत
चुपके से किसी रोज़ जताने के लिए आ

जैसे तुम्हें आते हैं ना आने के बहाने
ऐसे ही किसी रोज़ न जाने के लिए आ

पहले से मरासिम ना सही फिर भी कभी तो
रस्म-ओ-रहे दुनिया ही निभाने के लिये आ

किस किस को बताएँगे जुदाई का सबब हम
तू मुझ से खफा है तो ज़माने के लिये आ
 

Things are Moving Out

Veteran actor and filmmaker Deven Verma passed away in Pune on Tuesday at 2 am, following a cardiac arrest.

Amol Paleker , Utpal Dutt , Devan Verma , Utpal Dutt and Farooq Shaikh ..my favorite actors .

I am losing them one by one . It was always simple and natural comedy by them .

His roles in Gool Maal , Baato Baato Me , Angoor has been wonderful .

Its difficult to enjoy the moves any more  :(

I am recalled of few lines by Ghalib :

Koi Ummeed Bar Nahin Aati
Koi Surat Nazar Nahin Aati

Maut Ka Ek Din Muayyan Hai
Nind Kyun Raat Bhar Nahin Aati

Aage Aati Thi Haal-E-Dil Pe Hansi
Ab Kisi Baat Par Nahin Aati

Jaanta Hoon Sawaab-E-Taat-O-Zahad
Par Tabiyat Idhar Nahin Aati

Hai Kuch Aisi Hi Baat Jo Chup Hoon
Warna Kya Baat Kar Nahin Aati

Kyun Na Chikhoon Ki Yaad Karte Hain
Meri Aawaaz Gar Nahin Aati

Daag-E-Dilagar Nazar Nahin Aata
Bu Bhi Ai Chaaragar Nahin Aati

Ham Wahaan Hain Jahaan Se Ham Ko Bhi
Kuch Hamaari Khabar Nahin Aati

Marte Hain Aarzu Main Marne Ki
Maut Aati Hai Par Nahin Aati

Kaaba Kis Munh Se Jaaoge ‘Ghalib’
Sharm Tumko Magar Nahinaati - See more at: http://www.urdushayari.in/2011/09/ghalib-koi-ummeed-bar-nahin-aati.html#sthash.0gZSZErN.dpuf

 Koi Ummeed Bar Nahin Aati
Koi Surat Nazar Nahin Aati

Maut Ka Ek Din Muayyan Hai
Nind Kyun Raat Bhar Nahin Aati

Aage Aati Thi Haal-E-Dil Pe Hansi
Ab Kisi Baat Par Nahin Aati

Jaanta Hoon Sawaab-E-Taat-O-Zahad
Par Tabiyat Idhar Nahin Aati

Hai Kuch Aisi Hi Baat Jo Chup Hoon
Warna Kya Baat Kar Nahin Aati

Kyun Na Chikhoon Ki Yaad Karte Hain
Meri Aawaaz Gar Nahin Aati

Ham Wahaan Hain Jahaan Se Ham Ko Bhi
Kuch Hamaari Khabar Nahin Aati

Marte Hain Aarzu Main Marne Ki
Maut Aati Hai Par Nahin Aati

Kaaba Kis Munh Se Jaaoge ‘Ghalib’
Sharm Tumko Magar Nahinaati

ahin Aati

Daag-E-Dilagar Nazar Nahin Aata
Bu Bhi Ai Chaaragar Nahin Aati

Ham Wahaan Hain Jahaan Se Ham Ko Bhi
Kuch Hamaari Khabar Nahin Aati

Marte Hain Aarzu Main Marne Ki
Maut Aati Hai Par Nahin Aati

Kaaba Kis Munh Se Jaaoge ‘Ghalib’
Sharm Tumko Magar Nahinaati - See more at: http://www.urdushayari.in/2011/09/ghalib-koi-ummeed-bar-nahin-aati.html#sthash.0gZSZErN.dpuf