Saturday, 10 December 2016

Tumhari Amrita

"Don't you dare touch it,” Ludhianvi said to Jaidev. “Amrita drank tea out of it the last time she was here."
This story is of famous poet Amrita Pritam and writer Sahir Ludhianvi .
Sahir never committed for the relationship, but there love for each other was immortal.
They’d sit in silence and gaze into each other’s eyes while Ludhianvi chain-smoked his cigarettes. After he left, Amrita picked up the stubs left by him and smoked them, pressing her lips upon the invisible imprint of his.
Sometime in the 1950s, Amrita’s hopes came crashing. Sahir, the famous poet, reigning over Bollywood as its highest-paid lyricist then, had found another love. “I was about to pick up the phone and call Sahir, when I saw the latest issue of Blitz. It had Sahir’s picture and a story that said he was with another woman. My hands froze…,” wrote Amrita.
In 1957 , Amrita met Imroz .
Amrita admits that “Imroz’s love was a gift” to her. “The helpless habit of years of writing only one name on papers, walls, hands made me trace Sahir’s name with my fingers on Imroz’s back when I would be sitting behind him on the scooter. Imroz would know the words and keep quiet about it. How he bore the weight of these words on his back I do not know.
I only knew he accepted me, my madness.”
Imroz wrote to her regularly, trying to win her love during their years of separation in the early 1960s, before they finally started living together, without marrying .
They never got married , but lived together till Amrita's death parted them in 2005.

One of the last poem which Amrita Pritam penned :
 मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं
शायद तेरे कल्पनाओं
की प्रेरणा बन
तेरे केनवास पर उतरुँगी
या तेरे केनवास पर
एक रहस्यमयी लकीर बन
ख़ामोश तुझे देखती रहूँगी
मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं

या सूरज की लौ बन कर
तेरे रंगो में घुलती रहूँगी
या रंगो की बाँहों में बैठ कर
तेरे केनवास पर बिछ जाऊँगी
पता नहीं कहाँ किस तरह
पर तुझे ज़रुर मिलूँगी

या फिर एक चश्मा बनी
जैसे झरने से पानी उड़ता है
मैं पानी की बूंदें
तेरे बदन पर मलूँगी
और एक शीतल अहसास बन कर
तेरे सीने से लगूँगी

मैं और तो कुछ नहीं जानती
पर इतना जानती हूँ
कि वक्त जो भी करेगा
यह जनम मेरे साथ चलेगा
यह जिस्म ख़त्म होता है
तो सब कुछ ख़त्म हो जाता है

पर यादों के धागे
कायनात के लम्हें की तरह होते हैं
मैं उन लम्हों को चुनूँगी
उन धागों को समेट लूंगी
मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं

मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी!!

Friday, 2 December 2016

रिश्ते


After a long time , I took break .

Its true that material things can contribute a lot to making one's life pleasant, but, basically, if you do not have very good friends and relatives who matter to you, life will be empty and sad and material things cease to be important.
I was in Kolkata with my sister and life just went back by 20 years . I grew up in a family with two very strong impact persons , maa  and my elder sister, and they were big influences on my life.
In the past 4 days , had my favourite food , listened to my favourite ghazals and spend  all my time sitting with my sister and reliving memories . Ultimately Things don't really impress much , but memories do . It's not the toys, it's the people who matter .

Saturday, 26 November 2016

Why to Wait

Why to wait for the day when life finally makes sense, when we find the silver lining in every tragedy, when we learn the lesson from each mistake .
Why to wait for the day that we understand why we met the right people at the wrong time or the wrong people at the right time and why our lives didn’t align to bring us together.

Why to wait for the day that we understand the lesson behind every struggle. Why we struggled to be successful, why we struggled to find love, why we struggled to reach our dreams and why we lost people who meant the world to us. I wonder if we needed these lessons to learn how to appreciate life and feel the pain of others or we just needed to learn that there is no living without suffering.

Thursday, 24 November 2016

Life Without Mobile

Is life so tough and un-imaginary without mobile phone :)
I keep doing that and have found that life was much simpler with limited exposure and information.
As time has passed, we have been into a world of information age with huge exposure to almost everything . But was this needed.
I feel it has made us more confused and indecisive. We are bombarded with information and are almost clueless, with what to do with the bundle of information.
I still feel , mobile was never my best friend .I am not ruling out the great power it carries and I do use it  , but still it has taken a lot of serenity than what we have got in return .
Its rightly said " The more time we spend interconnected via a myriad of devices, the less time we have left to develop true friendships in the real world"

Wednesday, 26 October 2016

Helplessness


Life has always been so uncertain and its been a chakraview , finding the reason for my existence and what next . Even a slightest of thing doesn’t work as per my will . So why all this .
Its again a very dead moment for me . I lost my cousin , and its so painful thinking that at what stage of life I am t, my cousins have started leaving me .
Its a state of complete helplessness .All my request , pray and begging has been unaccepted .
He was my sole reason to visit Ranchi , very grounded and always with a smiling face. He was also my mother's special    .
Within I am broken and even though I have planned to visit Ranchi tomorrow , I have no strength left to see him lying lifeless .
Tomorrow , all things beautiful and bright would be buried with him forever .

Monday, 10 October 2016

Walking Along The Memory Lane


Naumi , the ninth day of Durga puja . I love this festival because this takes me back to my golden days with Maa .
Out of the whole year , there were just 2 occasions when we got new dresses , durga puja was one of them . Naumi used to be the day when we all went to the puja pandal and offer flowers to Maa Durga in new dress .
Maa used to look so pretty in red sari and lot of red glass bangles. Time has changed. We all left Boakro 10 years back . Every thing of that era stayed back in Bokaro , except my golden memories of time spend with Maa . These were the most special time for all of us . And its true , When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.