MAA- A Journey Alone

I am lonely in the crowd , don’t know what to do next, don’t feel like making life happy , seems life has reached its full stop. And the sole reason – my mother. Since she has left me alone and decided alone to move on a new journey---- nothing motivates me except the fact that she has left the most precious think of her life for me to take care--- my father. Its strange , but she had an intense love for my father , “unmatched”
She never went even for a small trip alone, and finally when she did…there was no way we could join her.
She was full of love and affection for all of us and not even in dream, she though of giving pain or trouble to us. Finally on the last day also she didn’t told anybody that she is having pain in her chest , since we might have to take her to the hospital and it was cold outside. At the very last moment also, she wanted non of us to go with her to hospital since we might get cold.
She was special , but seems we never understood her . Things looked pretty fine from outside, but within she was suffering – all alone
I strongly believe that soul decides the path for progress with alignment of body. I really don’t know what compelled her to decide that its time for her to leave this world.
Is there second life, is there life after death, where is she now, does even soul exist , will I be able to meet her .All these are thoughts which keeps on coming.

Religion

Can religion be enforced …… can it be put on someone ????
I don’t think so…its totally a personal thing , but one thing is true that all religion leads to the same direction. Paths may be different , rituals may be different , way of worship may be different …but the ultimate goal is one---- divine grace.
No one has seen god , each one of us can feel and believe .
Today on the eve of Christmas , I and my friend Aman went to Church here in Denmark. It was a amazing experience. The whole environment was vibrant and charged. Although we were not able to understand the language in which the prayers where delivered, but that was no were hampering our attachment for the divine.
I strongly feel that religion came into existence only because some one though that this may help us to be better person. God never thought of diving the humanity on the basis of religion. And also those who created this religion and believes had good motives, but its we who have taken this above humanity. How can we love god if we are not able to love human being who is again creation of the divine. If we truly love divine, we should as well be able to love his creation “ human being”
Its strange that among few people we know, we are not able to like them all. What would be the condition of god, as he has millions of us to like and love.
Better leave thy feeling with thy….only thing we can do to really show that we really believe in divine is to start loving people around us.

Inclusive Education – Outcome

Don’t get surprised with this topic, I heard this terminology from my wife since she is doing her PhD in this subject. Its all about including Physically challenged students with the normal students.
But the question still remains---- will any initiative yield positive result without actually putting soul into it. I mean to say the motive of those who are associated in this march towards inclusion.
The motive of social work is much more than just earning bread and butter. It’s being passionate about bringing change to the society without selfish motive.
But since basic needs as mentioned in the Maslow’s need hierarchy theory are itself not satisfied , its difficult for change owners to do a selfless job , which ultimate reflects on the outcome .
Special child needs someone special who really understands him and make him feel like a normal child . Therefore much is expected from the change owners. This reflects the chain reaction in which one need to take care of the other which would finally flow to the special child and we would be able to see the change.
Its not the responsibility of the NGO alone or the parents who are directly or indirectly affected, but we all are equally responsible to achieve the same and give special child a normal life to lead.

Madness

Another name of madness is Monu , my wife. We two have opinion which are no way connected to each other ……. But still we love each other and enjoy the differences .
She loves things which are out of this world. Just to make things simpler there are few differences which are in the chart below

Still we love each other . We still wonder what was the thing which made us like each other . May be we agreed on one ---- “we are different”.
But in spite of all these , she is mad about loving me. She has sets of questions and she also has specified answers. If the answer provided by me doesn’t falls within the acceptable limit, then I am not spared. May be that’s the reason , I am also trying to develop madness and it seems true to me now that “ Madness is key to love “

Memories

This seems to me the most important aspect of life. From the day I have lost my mother, each moment is a fight for survival. My thoughts are full of her memories--- her ever smiling face, her lovely way of calling me “bangat”, her readiness to surrender against my madness, her sweet voice and the way she used to call me “beta”, her acceptance to all my demands, her ABC analysis in which my demands always resides on top, her lovely food, waiting at the lawn gate to receive me when even I used to go to Bokaro, her restlessness on hearing that something is disturbing me and above all her unconditional love for me ……………………………
All these are there in my memories and there is nothing I can do to overcome. She is always there at the back of my mind and I keep on trying something new to make myself understand that she is there ---- very much alive ------- but within I know that’s not true.

I used to cherish my memories since all was complete in my life , but now there is a never ending vacuum and so the same memories are disturbing me again and again.
Its difficult to cherish happy times now, what comes is mostly the though that I have lost my mother ।
मेरी माँ , प्यारी माँ---मम्मा

The Silence behind Life

There is a silence behind life as well as within it and it is only
in this more secret, sustaining silence that we can hear clearly
the voice of God. In the noise of the world we hear only altered
& disturbed echoes of it; for the Voice comes always-
who else speaks to us on our journey?- but the gods of the
heart, the gods of the mind, the gods of desire, the gods of
sense take up the divine cry, intercept it and alter it for their
purposes. Krishna calls to us, but the first note, even the opening
power or sweetness, awakes a very brouhaha of these echoes.
It is not the fault of these poor gods. The accent of power is
so desirable, the note of sweetness is so captivating that they
must seize it, they would be dull & soulless, there would be
no hope of their redemption if they did not at once leap at it
and make it their own. But in becoming their own, it ceases
to be entirely his. How many who have the religious faith and
the religious temperament, are following the impulses of their
heart, the cravings of their desire, the urgency of their senses,
the dictates of their opinion when they fully imagine that their
God is leading them! And they do well, for God is leading
them. It is the way He has chosen for them, & since He has
chosen it, it is the best & wisest & most fruitful way for them.
Still it is their God- not one they have made in their own
image as the Atheist believes, but One who makes Himself in
the image that they prefer, the image that best suits with their
nature or their development. ªIn whatever way men come to
me, in that way I love & cleave to them.º It is a saying of
fathomless depth which contains the seed of the whole truth
about God & religion. After all it is only in this way that the
conditioned can meet the Absolute, that which has a nature or
dharma of its own with that which is beyond all limit of nature
or dharma. After the meeting of the soul with God- well, that
is a different matter. The secrets of His nuptial chamber cannot
all be spoken.
Nevertheless, there is a higher way of meeting him than that
which leads us through subjection to the Gods. By perfect Love,
by perfect Joy, by perfect Satisfaction, by perfected mind one can
hear what the Voice truly says if not the Voice itself- catch the
kernel of the message with a sort of ecstatic perfection, even if
afterwards the Gods dilate on it & by attempting to amplify &
complete, load it with false corollaries or prevent some greater
fullness of truth from arriving to us. Therefore this way also,
though it is high, cannot be the highest.

Generation Next- Search for Unknown

We fall in the generation characterized by lack of patience and restlessness. Even in our job, its difficult to find a guy who has been in a company for more than 5 years.
My father retired from SAIL after dedicated service for 42 yrs to the organization.
I cant even think of that in present situation. The reason being, we are in hurry to achieve too much in too little time . Definitely the search is not for peace and satisfaction, but sole motto of Money which ultimately results in frustration and illness.
Few years back , I was in Pondicherry having a chat with one of our close family friend and he said a very good thing “ if any organ gets damaged due to profession one is into, then its time to think inward whether one is into right profession or not”.
But the problem is , do we really want peace of mind ???
Its long proved that money can never give peace of mind or satisfaction . There is something else which really matters most ---- and I think that’s “Gratification of Desire “

Life - As I see It

seene mein jalan aankhon mein tufaan saa kyon hain ?
is shahar mein har shaks pareshaan saa kyon hain ?

dil hain to, dhadakane kaa bahaanaa koee dhoondhe
patthar kee tarah beheesa-o-bejaan saa kyon hain ?

tanahaee kee ye kaunasee, manzil hain rafeekon
taa-hadd-ye-najar yek bayaabaan saa kyon hain ?

kyaa koee nayee baat najar aatee hain hum me
aaeenaa humei dekh ker hairaan saa kyon hain ?

Lessons from Mumbai Attack

1. Stop expecting too much from the politicians. We need to take things in our own hands and start afresh

2. Be Responsible : No more mediocre approach towards security.

3. Terror law to be toughen. No mercy and delay in justice other wise we have to repent again the way we are now for Masood Azhar.

4. Life is life. whether its of a cat, a dog or human being. I have put human being at last because that’s the way its in our nation.

5. Not a single person is a common man. Each one is special and has importance somewhere or the other. Respect Life .Ask someone who has lost some one special may be he was a "common man" as we call him but for that family the lose is irreparable.

6. Its not time of "Ahimsa" "Nonvoliance" as Ghandhiji said. It hold good when you know against whom you are fighting and who is your enemy. But when we don’t even know whom we are fighting against, tough actions are the only way out , may be diplomatic pressure or if nothing works "limited war" in the Pak occupied Kashmir on the LeT camps there.

7. I hope the average age of our politicians are almost 70 yrs . this is the age when risk taking is almost nil and trying out new things also vanishes. Same is with our politicians. its better when we vote now , other than candidate party we also look at the age he/she belongs to .

Mumbai Attack—War On India

It was 9/11 for India and all of us. It fills all Indians with anger and frustration. Why don’t we learn from other’s mistake. The worst part is that we don’t even learn from our own mistakes. And the result is in front of all . 60 hours of fear and terror which ultimately ended with hundred of our people dead.
It is the high time we do something once and for all. We have to change the “Chalta hai “ attitude. Its true that the ideology flows from the top . Since the leadership itself is a flop , its time we take things into our hand and start thinking.
I still don’t understand a single positive thing these terrorist outfits get out of such a act.

Purpose of Education

"Everyone has in him something divine, something his own, a chance of perfection and strength in however small a sphere which God offers him to take or refuse. The task is to find it, develop it & use it. The chief aim of education should be to help the growing soul to draw out that in itself which is best and make it perfect for a noble use."
Sri Aurobindo

Recession – Pros & Cons

Since its official that recession has come back again, what should be the approach to tackle that. I am not sure what should be the approach on a collective basis, but individually we can do much. Instead of taking this as down turn, we can see this as opportunity . Like to gather more knowledge if we were not able to do that due to lack of time. May be add skills which we always wanted to do and move to entirely new area taking this as a challenge.
Since we don’t have much control on the external factors which results in recession, its better to see within and take this opportunity as a time for new learning .

Thanks
Maneesh

Divine Surrender

"Surrender" in itself is the first step towards divine acceptance and our will to move ahead on thy will. Reasoning doesn't comes into picture once total surrender is present. And its important to understand that thy will acts only when the acceptance is 100%. In Mahabharata , Duryodhan was on the way of humiliating Draupadi , but she was constantly calling Krishna for help. The voice was very well heard by Krishna , but instead of repeated quest for help, he was unmoved. Draupadi was holding the sari with one had and the other had was up in the air for help . Finally she left the sari and raised both her hand in the air asking Krishna that now you can only save me. And that was the moment Krishna came and then what happened, we all know. The reason behind, "Complete Surrender" , that's what Krishna was waiting for . Draupadi had some hope on herself and that was the reason of holding the sari with one hand.
Believe me , divine acceptance never fails.

Thanks
Maneesh

Existance of Life after death

This idea comes into mind only when you lose someone who is irreplaceable and is with you each moment . Yes, I am talking about losing "MAA"
Things are upside down and leaving aside all other feeling , there is a though about what would be life after leaving body. I hate the word " death" as I feel soul never dies and you just leave the body. I strongly fell there is life after death , may be because I like to rejoin my mother and there is no other way then to have this idea inside in a strong way.
Please understand the importance of having parents as they are the greatest asset one has .
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