Year 2014

Thank you Matajee , for being with me and accepting me as I am . Every event of 2014 has been a blessing from you and I thank you from the bottom of my heart .

This year has been a moment of some of my post important inner findings . But the worst has been one of my action which i will repent me for my life .

I am also thankful god for giving me such a wonderful family and friend , who stand by me in all the situations .

To sum up , I am so grateful to you for keeping all my loved ones with me , all with good though and good health .

Love & Acceptance

Papa's love for me is unconditional and pure . I too know that .

But at times my reactions are so weird .

Few days back , he called me from Kolkata and due to bad voice quality his voice was too loud.

Even after my repeated request , his pitch was too high . In my bad mood I replied arrogantly that papa your voice is not clear and even if you shout , how will I hear .

He was disappointed . I came out of the meeting , called him 5 times , but he didn't picked .

I called my sister and asked him to help mediate . I knew I was wrong .

My sister then gave him the phone forcefully , I asked for pardon .

I knew he will forgive me ...and he said ... "your answer was rude ...showed you don't want to talk ...if someone doesn't want to talk ...what can I do ...but if I know you want to talk , I will do every bit to talk till he says he doesn't want to  "

I am happy he accepted me back ...even with all my mistakes ...he loves me .

Can't Help Falling In Love

Wonderful song by Elvis Presley ....and the magical voice .
I love ghazals , Indian classical , both insturmental and vocal . But this song is classic

Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you
for I can't help falling in love with you 

Link : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5V430M59Yn8

Destiny & Choice

I don't believe in destiny . 

Destiny = The inevitable or necessary fate to which a particular person or thing is destined; one's lot.

Are my actions approved by divine ...dont know :(
So why so much confusion on what where why who when etc
There is lot of confusion about destiny and choice .
There is no end to this controversy , but can be understood with what Swami Chinmayananda said :
"What we meet in our life is destiny ; how we meet what we meet is our choice "

ॐ जय जगदीश हरे

Went to Lakshi Narayan Mandir . Fortunately it was time for Arti ( prayer ) . It was so vibrant and I really enjoyed the Arti . ॐ  जय जगदीश हरे was my favorite Arti ...although I was too small to understand during my Bokaro days when I first heard and sang this prayer , but I always enjoyed .

Then comes a line which says " तेरा तुझको अर्पण , क्या लागे मेरा " .Wired and strange  ..so all belongs to the supreme  ...and we all know that ..but how to arpan ...give back . This is not easy ...its possible only when the surrender is pure and driven and centered around the supreme .  

 I just loved the moment I spend in the temple ...and the vibration and feel inside is so powerful .

Maa & Me

Divine roles ...Maa , friend , teacher , sister , wife , daughter .
The comfort and feel I shared with Maa was unmatched .
MY FIRST LOVE .
Even now in my toughest times , hope she was with me  . 

रंजिश ही सही

Was listening to Papon on Mtv unplugged . Great singer and with lot of music sense .

He also sang one of my favorite numbers ...a ghazal by Mehandi Hasan saab .

The lyrics is so touching and I have been hearing this from past 20 years or so.

रंजिश ही सही दिल ही दुखाने के लिए आ
आ फिर से मुझे छोड़ के जाने के लिये आ

अब तक दिल-ए-खुशफ़हम को हैं तुझ से उम्मीदें
ये आखिरी शम्में भी बुझाने के लिये आ

इक उम्र से हूँ लज्ज़त-ए-गिरया से भी महरूम
ऐ राहत-ए-जां मुझको रुलाने के लिये आ

कुछ तो मेरे पिन्दार-ए-मोहब्बत का भरम रख
तू भी तो कभी मुझ को मनाने के लिये आ

माना के मोहब्बत का छुपाना है मोहब्बत
चुपके से किसी रोज़ जताने के लिए आ

जैसे तुम्हें आते हैं ना आने के बहाने
ऐसे ही किसी रोज़ न जाने के लिए आ

पहले से मरासिम ना सही फिर भी कभी तो
रस्म-ओ-रहे दुनिया ही निभाने के लिये आ

किस किस को बताएँगे जुदाई का सबब हम
तू मुझ से खफा है तो ज़माने के लिये आ