Loneliness

Extract from how its there on wikipedia.

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Loneliness is a complex and usually unpleasant emotional response to isolation. Loneliness typically includes anxious feelings about a lack of connectedness or communality with other beings, both in the present and extending into the future. As such, loneliness can be felt even when surrounded by other people. The causes of loneliness are varied and include social, mental, emotional, and spiritual factors.

One  can experience loneliness for many reasons and many life events may cause it, like the lack of friendship relations during childhood and adolescence, or the physical absence of meaningful people around a person."

I am growing ????

I am growing , how can that be verified . Growing money , bank balance , promotion , bungalow , car etc etc  etc .

Does it anyway prove that I are growing . And the whole life goes in planning .

One fine day , sit and analyze , have we lost the charm of life in this whole planning exercise ???????

For a matter of 1000 Rs , we plan for a day . Is life so cheap . 

WHAT HAVE I DONE WITH MY LIFE

 

I am tired of this discussion and feel down when money becomes more important that living beings .

I have never seen a person like my mother , complete faith on divine , resulting in each day and each moment of lively life . She was so pure at heart, with 0 calculation .

May be that was also one of the reason why she left me in just 1 hr , from the moment she decided to leave me alone .By the time I could have realized ,planned , executed ,  she was out of my reach .

I always wanted to live a life based on PRESENT  , NOW  , THIS MOMENT  , least to plan , least on calculation . But somehow people around me think otherwise .

May be they are right ...don’t know .

Giving Birth

Creation is in the hand of god . When you create , you somehow help divine is achieving and pursuing his plan .

Not every human being feels the need to do so , but if you ask me personally , I feel it to be a part of the absolute and mandatory for one to be complete .

Having children isn’t just about making sure that your family name exists in this universe , but  connecting to this spiritual force that has the potential to open your heart to the universal and unconditional love that is piousness.

 Not everyone who has a child experiences it as this outer space force, and not everyone who doesn’t pursues understand  the dynamism of the creation.

But at the same time, if you have a baby, and you are a mother, that being will forever be on your mind and in your heart. Its almost obvious on how  much you love and think about them, because you will never have your own priority again. 

Your child will always be with you, and inside you.

Birthday of my daughter

Yesterday was my younger sister's birthday . She is my daugher now as i did Her Kanya daan . I knew she would be down , remembering maa . Went to her place and she was so excited seeing me . I feel blessed to have her , so pure at soul and still a cute little bacchi .

Since we all including her hubby , kid were sitting in the same room , i just followed her to the kitchen to put back the plate . She couldn’t stopped herself and tightly hugged me and was down remembering Maa , who always used to tell bauji " mera baccha ka birthday hai , aap isko bahar khila ker le aaiye “

I didn’t had words to comfort or justify .

I always feel she has been handed over to me by Maa .

My faveroute Goddess : Maa Saraswati

My faveroute Goddess : Maa Saraswati

All details from Wikipedia
Saraswati is the Hindu goddess of knowledge, music, arts and science. She is the companion of Brahma, also revered as his Shakti (power). It was with her knowledge, that Brahma created the universe.

Saraswati is strongly associated with flowing water in her role as a goddess of knowledge. She is depicted as a beautiful woman to embody the concept of knowledge as supremely alluring. She possesses four arms, and is usually shown wearing a spotless white saree and seated on a white lotus or riding a white swan.

According to writer Sailen Debnath

1. Saraswati is the goddess of learning, and not a god; and this feminine aspect signifies creativity, as a woman can originate a human being in her womb.
2. White colour of the goddess signifies spotless character and immaculate mind.
3. Seated on an inverted white lotus meaning to be in search of the light of knowledge.
4. White swan is the vehicle of the goddess; and this is indicative of inquisitiveness.
5. The Goddess is playing the vina; and this signifies harmony of all mental strings, agencies and attitudes.
6. The goddess is worshipped with Palash, a red odourless flower; and this symbol is indicative of being free from putrefied preconceptions.
7. Inkpot with pen and books as symbols."