Jhumi ...You Left Us Alone Baby

Wanted to say how much we all miss you Jhumi , every moment . The moment you have left us yesterday ( 21st June 2012 ) ...the whole house is quite and lifeless. Your voice , your naughtiness and your sweet gesture ..all is over and vanished .

You are not there to welcome us when we come back home and also your liked nuts , potatoes are no more empty . You left us the same way as maa left ...with no notice or hint .

15 years , with us ...we all have lost our sweet little baby . I will never bring any pet again in my like as your memories no more excites me .

Love you Jhumi and be happy with maa in the haven . Hope you are getting all which you started missing once maa  left .

Trust and Faith

Two heavy weight words which seems to be vanished now . This world seems to be just a play ground where all is about pure business of give and take . So it would be good to keep these 2 things aside . The moment you try using them , things would be out of your control as you will come to know , except you , all have adapted to this change in your surroundings .

It reminds me of the story of Siva and Bhasmasur ...when Sivan , who is known to be emotional , granted will that if Bhasmasur keeps his hand on anything , it will be destroyed . The situation was so that , he finally wanted to destroy the lord himself .

So why learn all on yourself , let’s start learning from others mistake . I have faced this recently and would make sure I don’t do anything from heart now . Specially at work place , pure brain with no emotion  ...that should be the mantra .

Trust and faith ... I have my family and close friends still to be fallen back for these 2 things ...but at work place ... god forbid.

I want to see MY GOD

I have a very deep desire to see GOD , how does he looks . Does he looks like my mother , my father , my sister ...how he looks . 

I know he exists ...don’t have any proof to tell you all , but still my faith has been so unshakable that I know I would be able to see him .God created everything that exists . So all good and bad has been created by him as well . Here I differ as I don’t think evil can be a creation of GOD .

God is like a candle , you can use it for reading a bible or Geeta or can use in the night to break a locker for robbery .How can we blame candle for it ....GOD is a candle .....a light ... and then best way to get guided is to listen to your soul ...."SOUL" ..not your mind or heart .

Kaha Chale Gaye Maa

kaha chale gaye tum maa....mera maan ek dam nahi lagta tumhare bina . bas tumhra yaad aur tumhara hi saya hamesha rahata hai . jab aise hi jana tha to kyu ye rishta shru kiya ...

kam se kam itna to kara ki agli baar sirf tum aur tum hi meri maa banna

My Neice Kikki

She is 10 years of old , very sensible , and means world to me . So special to me because of many reasons . When I call her , by just hearing " Mannu mama sunno na " , i am like out of this world ...so sweet .... so passionate ... it just touches my heart .
She was the first one to come in our house and during her birth , my mother was soo excited . She has always been very special for me .

Missing Excitement from Soul

Have you even seen your parents being excited when you do something to be proud about . Its pure divine .

I feel , the only person who are attached on pure love , pure emotion , pure feeling ....it can be only maa and papa.

Sometimes even when i used to communicate to my maa that I have bought a hanky, she was soooo excited as if her son has bought one of the most expensive and rare thing in the world ....pure passion and attachment .

All seems to be missing .... i wonder ...where she is ....whether she will ever recognize me once I meet her again ...in my next birth.

Magnet No More

Yesterday on Holi , I was at home with Jayanti and had no mood to play holi . We had our B'fast followed by good lunch . But My mind and soul was tied back to my Bokaro days , 15 years back , when we all used to be at Bokaro this time. Maa used to prepare lavish food with amazing energy and smile . The whole environment was fun and lively because of her . We 4 ( I and my 3 sisters ) had to come back from our respective places to play Holi in Bokaro .
Yesterday , the situation was up side down . We all played Holi at our own homes and the worst was my younger sister , who was alone at home since her hubby was out on tour .
Very painful and depressing scene as I never wanted to see my home at this situation , so early .
The sole reason that the magnet who pulled us towards her is no more . We all love each other , but time has changed , all busy with own stuffs and family obligations .
Life has been soo directionless without her .