Happy Birthday Maneesh

I never celebrated my birthday with balloons , i tried recalling , but its true , never.

In my office this time , my brother Aman and close friends celebrated my birthday and it was so so special .The room was decorated with color papers , balloons and even light .

I entered the room which was dark and then the lights flashed ...great way to celebrate birthday .

All filmy and I know this would have been the idea of my brother Aman .

It was too emotional and as always I was remembering my mother for whom this day was the most special day of the year . For me my birthday is a normal day as the person who used to make is special is no more . But this time , it was special  .

Life has been very much like this song :

Link for Song : Kis Lamhe Ne 

It's 4:30 PM

It took 3 hours to get all over . We started at 11:30 AM from my home , reached at the cremation ground at 12:30 . I made sure I feel her completely for the last time , touched her all over , as I knew I won’t be able to see and touch her again , and then sat aside . It took just 3 hours to see that she has turned into ashes . Everything was over by 4:30 PM and my world changed  . Its 9 years now , but I relive every moment of that day . While lighting deep today , it was difficult to feel that she is no more . Life has been running at its own pace  , but  I can still feel her complete pure love for me .

Believe Can Change Your Life

Everyday life is impossible without holding your own set of beliefs. Just because belief exists silently doesn't make it less powerful. The most powerful beliefs are the ones which is "core beliefs", because they tell you "who you are". If someone deeply believes “I'm a winner” and someone else believes “I am unlovable,” the outcome of their core beliefs will be very different. It's critical to hold positive core beliefs and to activate them in your daily life. The more you activate your core beliefs, the more dynamic and transformed your reality will be.

There are four core beliefs that make the most difference:

•     Love
•     Self-worth
•     Feeling safe and secure
•     Feeling whole

In everyone's heart there is a belief about all four of these things, and this belief isn't always simple. Your entire life has shaped your core beliefs, while at the same time your core beliefs have shaped your entire life. Take the area of love. Here are some possible core beliefs that someone can hold about love, either positive or negative.

Negative Beliefs

•     I am not very lovable.
•     Love is temporary and fleeting.
•     Love can easily turn into hate.
•     Falling in love is a delusion, a kind of romantic insanity.

Positive Beliefs

•     I deserve unconditional love and also want to give it.
•     Love is eternal.
•     Consciousness itself contains the power of love.
•     Human love can connect with divine love and rise to its level.

As you can see, someone who holds the second set of beliefs will be happier and more fulfilled than someone who holds the first set.

You consciously diminish negative input and consciously increase positive input. Setting up such a program ensures that your life will always be dynamic, because nothing creates change and transformation like gaining control over your core beliefs. As they evolve, so do you, moving ahead on a never-ending journey that is based on your deepest belief in who you really are.

Happy New Year 2016

May this New Year bring to everyone a sense of gratitude and fulfillment as we travel day-by-day towards the light of Wisdom. May we continue to tune in with our infinite potential, grow spiritually, and enjoy prosperity. 
May each day be an offering to the divine Principle that resides within and without, enriching our hearts and the hearts of everyone around us .

There Is No Semi Final

We always get trained on something new . Every final has a semi final . 

Except : someone's last journey ...i hate to say ..but its Death 

When maa left me alone and went , i was never planned nor  ready to live life without her  .

And when you are not told or guided ...its as if looking out for a way out in a dark room

I hate why I was not teached  how to live life without  maa

I know there was nothing which has happened to me alone . But may be I was never prepared  .

On the day when she left ...papa called me and said .." maa is no more " ....and my response was... whose mother ?

As if this would have never happened to me ..............

But time has all the capability to melt everything

I still miss her every moment ...but some memories have faded and I am myself surprised .

May be ....this is life

दिल ढूँढता है

Take care of all your memories. For you cannot relive them. I was born in Bokaro , a small industrial town and major part of my life was spend in official quarters allotted to papa . It also had lawn and till 10th standard, apart from school and play, lawn was my favorite place . 

Music, at its essence, is what gives us memories. And the longer a song has existed in our lives, the more memories we have of it. This song is one of them : 

दिल ढूँढता है, फिर वही फुरसत के रात दिन
बैठे रहे तसव्वुर-ए-जाना किये हुए

जाड़ों की नर्म धुप और आँगन में लेट कर
आँखों पे खिंच कर तेरे दामन के साए को
औंधे पड़े रहे कभी करवट लिए हुए

या गर्मियों की रात जो पूरवाईयाँ चले
ठंडी सफ़ेद चादरों पे जागे देर तक
तारों को देखते रहे छत पर पड़े हुए

बर्फीली सर्दियों में किसी भी पहाड़ पर
वादी में गूंजती हुयी, खामोशियाँ सूने
आँखों में भीगे भीगे से लम्हे लिए हुए