Fun of being Arjun

Before the start of the Mahabharata , there were lots of questions and disturbance in Arjun's mind . All normal questions which we all thing every day .

The moment Krishna explained the Karma theory , thinks were upside down for Arjun . All the difference was in just one line : who is the actual doer ...and he was relaxed and convinced. Through out the Yudh , decisions were taken by Krishna and Arjun was just a puppet .

That’s the fun of being Arjun . Imagine ...your sarthi for life is Krishna...awesome .

Though itself makes me feel soo delighted .

Back to the tough part ...it needs complete surrender ...am I  ??? :)

Siddhi

“Possession of material riches, without inner peace, is like dying of thirst while bathing in a lake.”

Paramahansa Yogananda

Inner peace is the ultimate achievement . I have always found myself disturbed when there is disturbance outside . But on the contrary, peace has been always inner .

Sitting alone in the room with light music . Completely submerged in the ocean of thought and focus straight on the divine , is something to look for .

I would be lying if I say , material success doesn’t excites me . I too get moved so easily and i enjoy a lot . But meeting god , touching him and finally being like him is the goal .

I still wonder how one would feel meeting the almighty.

लगता नहीं है दिल मेरा,उजडे दयार में

Papa was singing this ghazal today morning . very emotional and I always feel he deeply misses Maa , but then few things are always within , and wrapped in heart . 

लगता नहीं है दिल मेरा,उजडे दयार में
किस की बनी है आलम-ए-नापायेदार में

कहे दो इन हसरतों से, कहीं और जा बसे
इतनी जगेह कहाँ है, दिल-ए-दाग़दार में
उमर-ए-दराज़ मांग के,लाये थे चार दिन
दो आरज़ू में कट गये, दो इंतेज़ार में
इतना है बद-नसीब ज़फ़र,दफ़्न के लिये
दो गज़ ज़मीन भी न मिली,कोए यार में
लगता नहीं है दिल मेरा,उजडे दयार में

Life is Empty

She was 55 when she left me alone . Maa was an amazing person . Her initial days were not so good . She was 3rd in the family of 4 brother and 2 sisters . From beginning she was studious and pure .

I don’t know exactly , but when she was 18- 19 , she got married . Came to Bokaro from Gaya and here as well her initial days were not so good . Papa was supporting her brothers back home . With the limited resource , she managed the whole house . Even when we grew up , we were always on priority for her  . Many a times I used to ask her , why you don’t do anything for yourself , with no desire .

Reply used to be : will do when I am done with all my responsibilities .

That day never came . Papa retired and she just started living her life on her terms free like a bird  , she was called by the divine . So there was nothing we did nor as responsibility or as favor or for happiness . She came on earth may be to settle us and then went back . We all are empty blank and clueless on why she decided to leave us alone so early.

I miss you maa every day , every moment .

Can parents be more Responsible

DIVORCE  is a horrible word. There is no way to make the word sound better or make its effects less painful. According to the Webster’s Dictionary, divorce is "the legal dissolution of marriage or the termination of an existing relationship or union"

Its really painful for being punished when you are not guilty .

Getting married to a person who has seen her parents fighting has sever affect on her own marriage . The person is not in a situation to even think that every individual is different  .

But one party is in pain only because the other half has been formed with past experiences , which were not so good .

When children observe their parents fighting and out of control, they feel more vulnerable and on shaky ground. As a result, the world appears threatening and less safe to the child. He might become anxious, depression, develop low self-esteem or grow into a fearful adult.

Parents who fight send their children a message that intimacy can bring pain and turmoil. Although they also see their parents being loving with each other, their explosive fights often leaves them upset. As a result, child might develop trust issues and avoid developing intimate relationships to protect himself from being hurt.

Since this issue has touched me soo much , I also thought of reading few latest researches on them . Research on the inter generational transmission of divorce has demonstrated that, compared to offspring of non-divorced parents, those of divorced parents generally have more negative attitudes towards marriage as an institution and are less optimistic about the feasibility of a long-lasting, healthy marriage. It is also possible that, when entering marriage themselves, adults whose parents divorced have less personal relationship commitment to their own marriages and less confidence in their own ability to maintain a happy marriage with their spouse.

Parental divorce may also undermine offspring’s perceived ability to attain a happy, lasting marriage. Many young adults from divorced families report a general belief that couples do not have the ability to overcome marital conflicts, as well as apprehension about repeating their parents’ mistakes and a belief that their hypothetical future relationships are likely to fail.

Papa thought On Maa

In his latest note on Maa , papa has written how much he misses her everyday , each moment . I am uploading his note without his consent ...very sorry bauji

Lord Siva

The day was going normal  , at 12 noon got a call from my cousin ...my badi maa left for the heavenly abode .

I and papa reached and then the cremation. Shamshan ghat is actually the place where if you sit for 2 hours with inner self ....you will go mad .. this world , these actions ...all thoughts keeps on coming .

I started crying for the body which was left back . She was 83 , all the growth which the soul does is backed and supported by body ...aur wo bechara peeche hi rah jata hai ...very heart touching

And then papa was moved by the Shiva temple inside the premises . And he told me that ...Shiva is the only god who can be present in the cremation ground and also on kedarnath .. amazing god ....through out the life , Shiva is the god who stays with us .

The Mother has paid homage to the BODY of Sriaurobindo and that’s engraved on the samadhi ....its

“To Thee who hast been the material envelope of our Master, to Thee our infinite gratitude. Before Thee who hast done so much for us, who hast worked, struggled, suffered, hoped, endured so much, before Thee who hast willed all, attempted all, prepared, achieved all for us, before Thee we bow down and implore that we may never forget, even for a moment, all we owe to Thee.”