Saturday, 2 February 2013

My death - Again


Today , from morning itself I feel strong presence of my mother .And then at 9.45 PM , its as if she has again left me alone forever. This day always troubles me , things which I never want to remember ....keep spinning in my mind .

Its 11 PM now , her heart beat is quiet …and I am dead again

Friday, 1 February 2013

2nd FEB - TIME STOPS FOR ME



Jala hai jism jahan dil bhee jal gaya ho gaa....

2nd Feb , the day maa left me forever on a journey .unseen unknown
I was performing my puja few days back and just thought of opening the sari which she wore on 2nd , the last day . I felt her presence and as if she was there . I was able to feel the fragrance and smell . Still feel, what can be one thing through which I can see and touch her again . Her voice and laugh , all time ...always in my soul .

Friday, 11 January 2013

Chanakya Niti



Definitely not telling that I agree to all the points below  , but still some of them are very velevent in today’s society . Few of them as said by Chanakya (Chanakya Niti )

1) "Learn from the mistakes of others... you can't live long enough to make them all yourselves!!"
2)"A person should not be too honest. Straight trees are cut first and Honest people are screwed first."
3)"Even if a snake is not poisonous, it should pretend to be venomous."
4)"There is some self-interest behind every friendship. There is no friendship without self-interests. This is a bitter truth."
5)" Before you start some work, always ask yourself three questions - Why am I doing it, What the results might be and Will I be successful. Only when you think deeply and find satisfactory answers to these questions, go ahead."
6)"As soon as the fear approaches near, attack and destroy it."
7)"The world's biggest power is the youth and beauty of a woman."
8)"Once you start a working on something, don't be afraid of failure and don't abandon it. People who work sincerely are the happiest."
9)"The fragrance of flowers spreads only in the direction of the wind. But the goodness of a person spreads in all direction."
10)"God is not present in idols. Your feelings are your god. The soul is your temple."
11) "A man is great by deeds, not by birth."
12) "Never make friends with people who are above or below you in status. Such friendships will never give you any happiness."
13) "Treat your kid like a darling for the first five years. For the next five years, scold them. By the time they turn sixteen, treat them like a friend. Your grown up children are your best friends."
14) "Books are as useful to a stupid person as a mirror is useful to a blind person."
15) "Education is the best friend. An educated person is respected everywhere. Education beats the beauty and the youth."

Sunday, 6 January 2013

Heavenly New year



I never wanted to change my mother , nor my divine , she was accepted the way she was ...so sweet , so divine .
Every year this happens ....the last day of the passing year and the 1st day of the new year ...I never want to spend with the people around me . It has to be a heavenly celebration along with Sriaurobindo , the mother and my Maa .
May be because no one around understands me ...may be other way round ..but its like that
So one more year passed without her and the new year as well .
In the last year , my pet Jhumi also left me for the heavenly abode .She was so close to everyone for the past 15 years . 
Went to ashram on 1st Jan 2013 and said Happy new year to Maa & Jhumi .

Saturday, 29 December 2012

Na jaane kyon


Mssing you Maa 

Na jaane kyon, hota hai yeh zindagi ke saath
achanak ye man
kisi ke jaane ke baad, kare phir usiki yaad
chhoti chhoti si baat, na jaane kyon

vo anjaan pal
Dhal gaye kal, aaj vo
rang badal badal, man ko machal machal
rahen, na chal na jaane kyon, vo anjaan pal
tere bina mere nainon me
Toote re haay re sapanon ke mahal
na jaane kyon, hota hai yeh zindagi ke saath ...

vahi hai dagar
vahi hai safar, hai nahin
saath mere magar, ab mera hamsafar
dhoonde nazar na jaane kyon, vahi hai dagar
kahaa gaeen shamen madabhari
vo mere, mere vo din gaye kidhar
na jaane kyon, hota hai yeh zindagi ke saath ...

Dead and Decayed Nation - India



I love my nation and feel blessed to be on this land of Sriaurobindo and Vivekananda . But acts like these shake me , makes me sad on how this can became a nation of living soul  again.
So finally the rape victim of 16th Dec left her body for the heavenly abode. Did she wanted to leave, did she ever thought her end would be the way it happened and will she forgive all of us
Very emotional moment for all of us ( only talking about people with pure soul ) . Even animals don’t act the way we have done . Are women aliens ???
These acts are always result of dead soul .
Few things I can think as cure  : Control on self , divine fear and respect for women . The moment you feel the soul, that divine presence in you , such thought cannot even come in the mind . It’s all inner rather than looking out
I feel I have lost someone from my family . Never wanted to end a year on such note . Sincere pray - may her soul rest in peace ....hope it’s accepted by my divine ( I am ashamed bhagwan )