Do I Look Mature

Few days back , I was sitting for a weekly review meeting of my team . The whole team was waiting for me in the board room . We did the reviews , feedback , discussion and then closed the meeting with few open critical items which I wanted to discuss with my Vertical Head .

I was not very happy with the front desk executive and so I communicated this to my Lead . I also updated that she is good , also able to manage 4 out of his 5 KRA , but the one which she is not able to manage is due to his personality which is not so mature . She looks more of a class 12 student than a graduate which is actually making her take tough due to public dealing .

So finally I said to my lead that I would rather think of having a new front desk executive than retaining her .

My meeting was over and we left .

Next day when I came to office , this little front desk lady came to me and said , Sir , I have changed my get up , my dress and also I have applied lipsticks , am I looking mature .

I could read ...she just wanted to tell me .." please don’t fire me "

It was very emotional for me . It was as if my own daughter kid was asking from me....if had a kid  .

I was speechless . I was stuck with my own believes , should I have a good nature employee or a employee with proper skill to deliver .

Its seriously not easy to be detached from all human being and take decision purely on professional basis .

I know I am a failure in terms of my decision as I decide to retain her , but I am satisfied and peaceful personally .