कब आते हो ..कब जाते हो

This is the only plant left with me now which was planted by Maa . Its a banyan tree and Maa used to perform puja around it .

ना आमद की आहट .. ना जाने की टोह मिलती है !
कब आते हो ..कब जाते हो !

ईमली का ये पेड़ हवा में जब हिलता है तो,
ईटों की दीवारों पर परछाई का छीटा परता है,
और जज्ब हो जातें जैसे !

सूखी मट्टी पर कोई पानी के कतरे फ़ेंक गया हो ..
धीरे धीरे आँगन में फिर धुप सिसकती रहती है ..
बंद कमरे में कभी कभी ,
जब दिये की लौ हिल जाती है तो,
एक बड़ा सा साया मुझे घूँट घूँट पीने लगता है !

कब आते हो कब जाते हो दिन में कितनी बार तुम याद आते हो !!

Life is too short to Plan

Its almost 10 years since Maa left . Its almost 5 years since we left our home town completely and shifted to Delhi .
I still have my home landline phone number saved under the name "Maa Phone "
From past few weeks , everyday I wake up with a natural feel what was there 10 years back . I have to wake up , make a call to Maa and let her know about everyday happening , small and big .

Something inside me , telling me everyday that she is in Bokaro waiting for my call .
I have even tried calling the number , but no response since its dead from past 5 years .
Her voice over phone still echoes in my ears . And her dying love for me , after all I came after so much of prayers which she did .

My heart wasn’t satisfied yet and she left

Watching Someone You Love Die

I found this cute picture of Maa in the album today .

My father was talking about Maa today and he because emotional . On the night of 2nd Feb , 2008 , when my mother suffered from heart stroke, she asked him to take her to hospital and also cried to make it fast . It was one of those few moments when papa would have drove the car at such a high speed . He rushed Maa to the critical unit . He was holding her hand and Maa was looking at him . Slowly and slowly she closed her eyes and papa could feel that she is leaving him for ever .
It just took 15 minutes and everything was over .
I was not there when papa was narrating this and he became emotional . This happened today at my sisters place in Kolkata  .
You don’t open up in front of all . You may be out spoken , extrovert or a crowd loving person , but when it comes to sharing something emotional, something from depth of your heart and something priceless , there are every few people in the list .
Didi is one such person with whom papa just opens up . May be he knows that she is one who is purely connected and can actually understand the pain and emotion which papa is going through .

We will meet in the Cloud

time flies by

Situations change and reality becomes your most valuable treasure of past

Pictures fade , memories fade

but the flame of light within , keep alive

till the time both the flames meet

Deep in the skies

memories flies

you were born and your mom cry

time has again taken a circle

you again decided to leave

flowers on your body

 left without saying BYE

I know we will meet one day Maa