My Neice Kikki

She is 10 years of old , very sensible , and means world to me . So special to me because of many reasons . When I call her , by just hearing " Mannu mama sunno na " , i am like out of this world ...so sweet .... so passionate ... it just touches my heart .
She was the first one to come in our house and during her birth , my mother was soo excited . She has always been very special for me .

Missing Excitement from Soul

Have you even seen your parents being excited when you do something to be proud about . Its pure divine .

I feel , the only person who are attached on pure love , pure emotion , pure feeling ....it can be only maa and papa.

Sometimes even when i used to communicate to my maa that I have bought a hanky, she was soooo excited as if her son has bought one of the most expensive and rare thing in the world ....pure passion and attachment .

All seems to be missing .... i wonder ...where she is ....whether she will ever recognize me once I meet her again ...in my next birth.

Magnet No More

Yesterday on Holi , I was at home with Jayanti and had no mood to play holi . We had our B'fast followed by good lunch . But My mind and soul was tied back to my Bokaro days , 15 years back , when we all used to be at Bokaro this time. Maa used to prepare lavish food with amazing energy and smile . The whole environment was fun and lively because of her . We 4 ( I and my 3 sisters ) had to come back from our respective places to play Holi in Bokaro .
Yesterday , the situation was up side down . We all played Holi at our own homes and the worst was my younger sister , who was alone at home since her hubby was out on tour .
Very painful and depressing scene as I never wanted to see my home at this situation , so early .
The sole reason that the magnet who pulled us towards her is no more . We all love each other , but time has changed , all busy with own stuffs and family obligations .
Life has been soo directionless without her .