Saturday 10 December 2016

Tumhari Amrita

"Don't you dare touch it,” Ludhianvi said to Jaidev. “Amrita drank tea out of it the last time she was here."
This story is of famous poet Amrita Pritam and writer Sahir Ludhianvi .
Sahir never committed for the relationship, but there love for each other was immortal.
They’d sit in silence and gaze into each other’s eyes while Ludhianvi chain-smoked his cigarettes. After he left, Amrita picked up the stubs left by him and smoked them, pressing her lips upon the invisible imprint of his.
Sometime in the 1950s, Amrita’s hopes came crashing. Sahir, the famous poet, reigning over Bollywood as its highest-paid lyricist then, had found another love. “I was about to pick up the phone and call Sahir, when I saw the latest issue of Blitz. It had Sahir’s picture and a story that said he was with another woman. My hands froze…,” wrote Amrita.
In 1957 , Amrita met Imroz .
Amrita admits that “Imroz’s love was a gift” to her. “The helpless habit of years of writing only one name on papers, walls, hands made me trace Sahir’s name with my fingers on Imroz’s back when I would be sitting behind him on the scooter. Imroz would know the words and keep quiet about it. How he bore the weight of these words on his back I do not know.
I only knew he accepted me, my madness.”
Imroz wrote to her regularly, trying to win her love during their years of separation in the early 1960s, before they finally started living together, without marrying .
They never got married , but lived together till Amrita's death parted them in 2005.

One of the last poem which Amrita Pritam penned :
 मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं
शायद तेरे कल्पनाओं
की प्रेरणा बन
तेरे केनवास पर उतरुँगी
या तेरे केनवास पर
एक रहस्यमयी लकीर बन
ख़ामोश तुझे देखती रहूँगी
मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं

या सूरज की लौ बन कर
तेरे रंगो में घुलती रहूँगी
या रंगो की बाँहों में बैठ कर
तेरे केनवास पर बिछ जाऊँगी
पता नहीं कहाँ किस तरह
पर तुझे ज़रुर मिलूँगी

या फिर एक चश्मा बनी
जैसे झरने से पानी उड़ता है
मैं पानी की बूंदें
तेरे बदन पर मलूँगी
और एक शीतल अहसास बन कर
तेरे सीने से लगूँगी

मैं और तो कुछ नहीं जानती
पर इतना जानती हूँ
कि वक्त जो भी करेगा
यह जनम मेरे साथ चलेगा
यह जिस्म ख़त्म होता है
तो सब कुछ ख़त्म हो जाता है

पर यादों के धागे
कायनात के लम्हें की तरह होते हैं
मैं उन लम्हों को चुनूँगी
उन धागों को समेट लूंगी
मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी
कहाँ कैसे पता नहीं

मैं तुझे फिर मिलूँगी!!

Friday 2 December 2016

रिश्ते


After a long time , I took break .

Its true that material things can contribute a lot to making one's life pleasant, but, basically, if you do not have very good friends and relatives who matter to you, life will be empty and sad and material things cease to be important.
I was in Kolkata with my sister and life just went back by 20 years . I grew up in a family with two very strong impact persons , maa  and my elder sister, and they were big influences on my life.
In the past 4 days , had my favourite food , listened to my favourite ghazals and spend  all my time sitting with my sister and reliving memories . Ultimately Things don't really impress much , but memories do . It's not the toys, it's the people who matter .